After watching herself on Lifetime’s “Preachers’ Daughters,” Tori Elliott realized that she had some serious personal issues to deal with, including a drinking problem.
“It’s been a really big wakeup call as far as alcoholism goes,” Tori told Sister 2 Sister. “I didn’t realize that I indeed have a drinking problem.”
Viewers who’ve tuned into season 2 of the show have likely already recognized Tori’s problem. She had to step out of church service to throw up and was ultimately kicked out of her parents’ home for intoxication.
“It wasn’t out of rebellion. It was about depression and hurt,” said Tori who credits the reality show with helping her come to terms with the issue. “I would say that I was in denial of even having a problem.”
While the other three preachers’ kids on the series are under 20 and living at home, Tori is the legal one in the group and her storyline highlights a whole different range of problems than her younger counterparts.
During taping, Tori lost her job and was evicted from her apartment before moving in with her parents who quickly put an end to that living arrangement as well. On the surface, it may look to viewers like Tori is just a girl gone wild, but she said her issues were deeper than that.
“I was in a really, really dark place,” said Tori who admitted that she contemplated suicide. “My fiancé left me… I dealt with it through drinking. It helped me sleep at night.”
Tori admitted that she was looking for love in the wrong places, but she’s now learned where she should turn for that fulfillment.
“You have to learn to love yourself,” she said. “I had to realize that just because this man doesn’t love me doesn’t mean I’m not good enough to be loved.”
Tori, whose parents were worried about her negative influence on her younger sister, said she wants to be a better example for “Preachers’ Daughters” fans.
“I do have to be a role model…I don’t want to let little girls think that it’s okay to do that,” she said in reference to some of her behavior on the show.
Tori also has a message for those who may be hurting and dealing with loss the way she was.
“It’s going to get better. I can’t tell you how to deal with it. Everybody deals with it differently,” she said. “If you’re a young woman, you’re going through things, just be careful. I can’t tell you what to do to stop the hurt, but losing your life isn’t worth it.”
“Preachers’ Daughters” airs on Lifetime Wednesdays at 9 p.m. EST.